Haay... its been more than a year now since i wrote on my blog.I felt so newbie here...Darn while reading my previous entries it makes me wonder if I really wrote all those stuff on my blog? Grabe as if im so transparent naman with my feelings.... Do i really love my hubby that much? hehehehe 

     It's more than a year , andami na changes.. dati i used to visit this site to see his blogs (f*ck im so dumb tlga with him) Pero ngaun its bit different... ( im befriend his gf then now his ex  , were in good terms right now, friend ko na rin ung ex ni pau).

    Hayden is turning 2 na dis September and so kulit ( andami na nya antics unlike this picture ang alam nya lng is ngusoo) . Funny,but now i can say i am myself is a mom not entirely but quite hehehe)

      its been three months since my last blog here in tabulas.... Kakpanibago seems i was starting to write all my kaartehan and drama in life here....

    Im a mom right now, I enjoy being a mom honestly..it make me more responsible than before... Yun nga lng mahirap... lalo na when you see your baby crying when he is not feel well, and most of all when i would see him still sleeping when I left home for work..

TIRED ........ yet I'm trying not to... tired for work and all the stuff that makes my life miserable.. But I have the will to go on for my Hayden..

FEEL UNLOVE ..... by my husband... who promised to be there with me all the times... it makes me sick whenever I think of his ways as well as his attitude for taking me and Hayden  for granted.

MISSin ...... my tita. for being there for me all the time despite of all..

BLESSED ...... with a good parent and supportive family and relatives.They didnt left me when i was so down....

SATURATED ....quite with the situation.. Being hide by my husband. I pity my child. Until now his parents doesnt have any idea that Hayden exist as well as I am Paul's wife.....

STARt ol over again ....  was my plan...start to live my life again... with my baby.... HE is all i need to live....  my hayden

 Damn! I m pretty bored with my life right now..parang im tired of working na, id rather stay at home and sleep..haay ang tagal lumabas ni babby kow...2 months pa to wait....

  Im missing my husband yet di pa sya call nor text, I wonder where he is and if he is missing me...Sana he would think of me as of now, thinking if im okei...kung okei lng ung baby namin.. kakainis parang wala lng kami ng anak nya sa knya..taken for granted kaya minsan he can't blame me if sometimes i dont feel like talking to him...di ko na nga sya pressure sa mga responsibilities nya for us kahit sa baby na lng..parang walalng sa knya... minsan hirap na ko kakawork e  ngagalit pa sya sakin...

  Hayy kakalungkot tlga, im just glad i have this baby and love him so much...

     geez.. im excited to see her na.. I'm pretty much sure its a girl... malikot na ang baby ko... i can really feel her moving na..( one of the reasons why i can't sleep at night aside missin' my husband )...

   As i vist my ob yesterday, she let me hear her heartbeat...how wonderful hearing her heartbeat is music to my ears....ganun din si pau, narinig nya... the life we built together....

   5 1/2 months na ang baby ko... akala ko me problem coz maliit lng ang tummy ko...there's nothing to worry pala, she's fine...malaki na raw ang bata... maliit lng kasi ako e...

  Hayy .... three more months and im gonna see her.. i'm a mom na! and absolutely a woman....

   I'm looking forward to see him...... a few months and soon i will be a mom. Kakatuwa amidst all the problem and difficulties we encounter for the past months.  My parents have difficulties accepting the fact that im having a baby... bata pa ksi si boo e... and am not ready for the responsiblities yet eto na mommy na ko in few months.

   I'm excited and so my boo...naging medyo responsible na ko kasi ngiipon na ko for him. I just wish na healthy yung baby ko pg labas nya.

    Yesterday paul accompany me sa Ob for my prenatal check up, he's 11 weeks na daw. . and my due will be Oct 2 if God's will....

     Sana lang God will guide us sa relationship namin and my family as well. I pray God na sana we will be a happy family and everything will turn out just fine...